Please do not come to this xanga again.... I am moving to a new one... So, just email me or aim me...

Email: back_draft@email.com

AIM: vincentkmikado

Well, I only have one thing to say...

                 ...Goodbye...

I hold my breath

As this starts to take it's toll

I hide behind a smile

As this perfect plan unfolds

But oh God I feel I've been lied to

Lost all faith in things that I've achieved...

I've awoken now to find myself

In the shadows of all I have created

I'm longing to be lost in you

     Away from this place I've made

Won’t you take me away from me...

Clawing through this world

As disease flows through my veins

I look into myself

But my own heart has been changed

I can't go on like this

I loath all I've become... ...

(sigh)...life....is so unpredictable...All I know is that I am actually thinking about moving on, completely. Going on a journey, in hopes of finding a girl who will be a great...something...can't really come up with the certain word that I am looking for. But you know what I mean. At least I think you do. Anyways, just wish me luck, in this search. That is, if you want to. Hmmm.... I wonder if I'll find a nice lady friend who wants to be with me... I hope I do... That's not too much to ask for. Right? I think so. Anyways, I gotta go now. So, Laters.

... ... ... Someone plz help me... help me sort out my life... and find my true purpose for being here... on this... this lame excuse of a planet... Help me... I don't wish to keep on hurting(and or being mean to) someone close to me... Why must I be the one to do this...? Why...? I just don't understand... I'll never understand... The only person who was ever close to me... knows what I mean... I'll admit(even though I don't want to) that I never truely did understand her or what she went through in life. I still don't... But does that mean I must suffer for it? ... I just don't know... Someone tell me... Someone plz tell me...